There are times
On the bus
In a pub with friends
Walking down certain streets
Hearing certain accents
Seeing couples in cafés
Listening to the iPod on random
Thinking about the past
Planning the weeks to come
Just feeling happy
When no matter how good a time I'm having or how great the company is
That I'll really really miss her
And I'll wish she was there
And I'll want to get in touch
And my phone will be in my hand, ready to dial or to text
Just to say hello
Just to hear from her
Just to know she's there.
And every time
Before I press the green key
I put my phone away
Because I know it's better
To leave the good memories be
To accept that life is better now, better for both of us.
It doesn't stop me missing her.
Go on, make that call!
ReplyDeleteSend her a postcard :) Nice post.
ReplyDeleteAh! You almost made me cry!Lovely post.
ReplyDeleteWhy not call her?
ReplyDeleteShe could be doing the exact same! It doesn't mean you're getting back together to run the same cycle or anything at all, just keeping in touch. Why not seize the day and all that? What would you do if you had no fear is another good one.
At least by making the call you can put your mind at rest, do it!
ReplyDelete"As lousy as things are now, tomorrow they will be somebody's good old days."
ReplyDelete~ Gerald Barzan ~
Sorry to go against the crowd, but don't do it! Leave it be. Make fresh, new acquaintances and let things blossom there instead.
ReplyDeleteI think you should leave it be, the response you get may be one you don't want and all your nice thoughts and memories will be tainted, sometimes the past is best left there, in the past.
ReplyDeleteSubconciously I think you know it would be a mistake to contact her, otherwise you would have pressed send/call when you composed the messages or brought up her number.
Some things are best kept as memories.
Mary makes a good point!
ReplyDeleteMary & Darren- that's what I was trying to say in my (far too) subtle way :-)
ReplyDeleteNiamh, this is Darragh we're talking about - subtlety doesn't work. Beating him over the head barely works.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comments all.
ReplyDeleteFor what it's worth, I shan't be calling her in that way, as I said, things are better the way they are now for both of us.
It's just sometimes, especially when you're doing something you remember you used to both enjoy you can get that "oh wouldn't it be nice" thought.
She's happy, I'm happy, we're still friends. Things could be a lot worse. :)
It gets me when I see or hear something funny, and he is the first person I think of, because I know he'd laugh too. I want to tell him about it, just to share the joke with someone who appreciates it. Instead I usually share it with a friend, whether they enjoy it or not.
ReplyDeleteCurly: I just turned around and rode away.
ReplyDeleteMitch: Why?
Curly: I figured it wasn't going to get any better than that.
Mitch: Yeah, but you could have been, you know, with her.
Curly: I've been with lots of women.
Mitch: Yeah, but, you know, she could have been the love of your life.
Curly: She is.
Lovely poem Darragh but don't make that call! Wait until you are soberer ;)
ReplyDeleteOh Darragh, what a lovely bitter sweet post.
ReplyDeleteMaybe she'll see it?
I think you did the right thing by blogging about it. You got the moment out of your system :) These moments of weakness will pass, promise :) My Dad said something brilliant once;
ReplyDeleteParters are like the number ten bus. They're along every few minutes. The trick is to make sure you're standing at the busstop when they pass.
It is TERRIBLY cheesey but he made me smile through lots of tears with it and it stayed with me, so I pass it on when I can... I caught another bus ;)
Oh this is so hard, but I think you're right on the posting instead of actually doing it. It's such a hard thing to do/to stop yourself from doing it.
ReplyDelete:( awwww I want to give you a hug :(
ReplyDeletedelete the number?
ReplyDeletelovley piece.I think everyone has been there and you've captured it. You're right to leave it. At some stage you just have to accpet that life's not always going to turn out how you would like. Often a reason can become apparnet for this but soemtimes, there's none whatsoever.The trick is accepting that. Feeling the disapointment, allowing the sadness but never letting it take over completely.
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